feeling inferior?
[ Saturday, October 14, 2006|5:40 PM ]
since i have nothing much to do, i shall blog. but there's nothing much for me to blog about today. lols. anyway, i felt blessed when it is made known that we need not be present in school on monday, except the 3Ns. but i suddenly felt miserable when we have to go back. it's so different. i made myself hate; knowing that its only for temporary reasons. but i think it somehow became reality. the feeling is damn unwanted. but i did not know why i'm seriously disgusted by the fact. i tried to get back to what it is last time, especially the lower sec evol. but cant. getting rid of what you scorn, difficult. wanting the kind of it to get back, worse. but evol is there. cant help. and its kinda forceful. i will be present, but perhaps my presence doesnt mean a thing.already said, evol is there. i must go, for the sake of myself. but going there will make me hate. seriously, i have no idea why.