SYF
[ Tuesday, April 03, 2007|6:28 PM ]
i don't know how to start. yesterday, 2 April 2007, went to school, duh. alright, day started with excitement and fear. had our phototaking before rushing up for practice. felt so nice when we went in the studio with seniors already there, giving us support. yea. practised awhile and went off to change into the costume. alright, abit about the costumes; ours was so nice as compared to other schools. anyway, practiced and got ready for everything that we should. lots of 'what ifs?' were in my mind la. then had a short break and boarded the bus and headed to Singapore Conference Hall. fear aroused of course. things were fine. saw our cello bass teacher and felt so relieved. she helped us alot, really. and before going up the third floor, she was standing at the railings there and there's a uncle asking if she's fierce. and the things she said were nice la. she said she love us. haha. yep. then proceed to the third floor. cello bass were behind, kept saying jiayou and jiayou. then before going in, we put our hands together and said jiayou. and i guess we did it. we tried our very best. and i'm really glad that our teacher came to us after our performance and said we were very good, a silver. really damn happy to hear that, cos all of us don't wanna let her down. she's really good. the songs were great and the music do touched me. the first part of the set piece where we're supposed to play, i 'rou xuan' become shiver. but after that, the music really warmed my heart and felt more confident. then many people assured us with a silver. then after that went back to school to put our instruments. and rushed to hail cabs to go back SCH for the results. went there, must wait awhile before we could enter. and i was pinning high hopes for a silver, yes, silver. but we got a bronze instead. i thought i heard wrongly and was staring into space. really, my mind was nothing but blank. serious? bronze? wtf? held back my tears for very long. out of the hall, i was still holding back my tears. cos i kinda couldn't believe it. but after that really can't stand it already. then tears just flow down. really very heartbreaking. really. but then yufang asked me to see other people and i also laugh la. cos very funny -.- and feyona's face also made me laugh. but really very sad. cry and laugh, cry and laugh. stomach pain liao and was feeling giddy. then was like drifting all the way. then went marina square with them to eat. still very moody. went home still very moody. sigh. can't help it la. today, don't feel like going to school. cos i know i won't have the stupid mind to even concentrate. but still went la. saw minting and elissa crying. and i also felt like crying. and having reading period that time, really felt like crying. cos saw the teachers talking and so on. sigh. then before entering maths class, sandhya was saying something la. i also felt like crying. ZZZ. then was dreaming all the way. then had three periods of english next. dreaming all the way. the first thing when i sat down and saw was music studio. all the memories and stuff. i really miss it. then was really tired, fell asleep. i dreamt until everyone. and suddenly heard my name in my dream and yifang woke me up. teacher call la. zzz. i want to get back into the dream. zzz. then was really tired la. then lessons, dreaming as usual. ss lesson is just so sleepy. sigh. then like that lo. really don't what to do. had srp, felt so empty. cos there's no co after that. really felt very empty. zzz. saw many encouraging phrases on people's msn nick. felt better la, but can't put it down.
